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Table of Contents:

Section I: Basic Terminology
Section II: Introductions to Us
Section III: Communication and Memory
Section IV: Headspace
Section V: Being Us
Section VI: Therapy
Section VII: Fronting
Section VIII: Soulbonds, Imaginary Friends, and Other Passerby
Section IX: Individual Differences
Section X: Uncloseting
Section XI: Gender and Sexuality
Section XII: Individual System Members: Gigi
Section XIII: Individual System Members: Sneak
Section XIV: Individual System Members: Miranda
Section XV: Individual System Members: Rogan
Section XVI: Individual System Members: Mac
Section XVII: Individual System Members: Falcon


SECTION I:  Basic Terminology

What is a multiple?
   Definitions vary.  We personally define it as having more than one person living in one body.

What is a soulbonder?
    A soulbonder is someone who feels a deep emotional connection to a character from fiction, be it an originally-made work or something already around, like Shakespeare.  This can vary from simply feeling a character is "alive" to actually having Othello come shack up on your mental real estate.

What is a median?
    A median or median system is a system that's somewhere between multiple and singlet.  It can be folks with a hive mind, or folks who are only multiple some of the time, etc.

What is a system?
   A word to mean all the people within one body, whether they interact with the body or not.  Used by soulbonders and multiples alike, it's fairly inoffensive and general purpose.

What is a trauma-based system?
   A "trauma-based system" is a system that identifies its origins as dating back to some traumatic event in life.  The "classic" form of multiplicity in medical literature is an individual whose mind shatters into multiplicity after overwhelming child abuse; some people assume it's the only form there is.

What is a natural system?
    A "natural system" is a system that identifies its origins as from something BESIDES trauma.  This origin can vary from "been this way forever," to "got bored," to "channeled spirits" to whatever.

Are all of these things mutually exclusive?
   NO!  You can be all of the above, or combos of them.

What is an alter?
    We define it as a system member who owes their origins to being "split" or "grown" off the mythical original person.  Be careful: some people don't find this term derogatory, but others do, due to therapeutic connotations of being less than human. We no longer use this term.

What is a host?
    A therapeutic term for the "original" person, or sometimes the person who fronts most; we've seen it used both ways, and people seem to confuse the two.  Obviously that has problems.  We tend not to use it.

What does co-conscious mean?
    It means that one system member can do something and another will remember it.  For instance, if Sneak bakes cookies, and I remember zer doing it, then we're co-conscious.  If Sneak bakes cookies and Gigi has no clue what those cookies are doing there, then they're NOT co-conscious.  There are different levels of co-consciousness.

What is integration?
   The old therapeutic way to fix multiplicity: solve everyone's issues, and then glue them back together into one happy functioning person.  Unfortunately, it doesn't take into account that some of us may not WANT to give up our independent existence, or be unable.

What is fronting?
   Face time.  Controlling the body.  Running the show.  Not necessarily whose thoughts are running the internal monologue, if that makes sense.

SECTION II: Introductions to Us

What are you people?
   We're a multiple system, a little on the median side because sometimes we'll unify together for a while.  We will also, if pressed, ID as a soulbonder, but we're on the fringe.

Who are you people?
   We're a system of five: Sneak, Rogan, Mac, Gigi, and Miranda.  There's also Falcon, but he only stops by occassionally.

Are you trauma-based or natural?
    Bit of column A, bit of column B. The Choir Invisible describes us as a natural multiple that got cemented by trauma, and that's as good a description as any, I guess.

Which one of you is the host, or the real Baaing Tree?
    None.  The closest we had was Lollyanna and she integrated with Miranda.

What do you call your group?
    The Loony-Brain or LB.  Our buddies also shorten Baaing Tree to Tree, BT, etc.

Where do those names come from?
    The Loony-Brain just popped up.  Baaing Tree has a long epic history behind it involving high school chemistry class.  Ask Sneak, zie'll tell you the story.

What's the proper word for what you guys are?  Should I call you alters or what?
     "People" or "system members" are easiest to remember and least offensive.

How co-conscious are you?
    Enough that it was only through careful paying attention that we found any lapses.  If you tell us something, likely everyone will remember it later; you won't have to repeat anything to us, unless it's incredibly delicate or upsetting.

SECTION III: Communication and Memory

How can I tell who's talking?
    Ask.  It's not offensive, seriously.  We try to tag our online statements, but sometimes we forget.  You'll recognize us over time.

I want to talk to N___.  How can I do that?
    Easy.  Ask for them.  Most of the time, we should have no problem getting who you want up front.

I want to talk to N___.  And I don't want you hearing.  How can I do that?
    Too bad, we're mostly co-conscious.  Can't do that on demand.

I want to ask a question, but I don't want to offend you.  How can I know whether it's a rude question or not?
    First, go through Rude Questions to Ask Loony-Brain.  If the question is on there, don't ask it.  If it's not, apply the following litmus test: would you ask this question to a family you had known for a comparable amount of time?  If doing so would anger your hypothetical family, be overly personal, or be impossible to answer, likely you shouldn't ask it.

How does your memory work?
    We have no idea.  General rule of thumb is: it only allows you to know the things you can handle.  Though it's usually courteous enough to tell us it's sealed something off for our own good and vaguely what it is.

Do you have any repressed memories, of the type that you wake up one morning suddenly to realize you've been horrifically abused?
    No.  We have yet to have memories taken from us without any of us realizing it.  At its most severe, Sneak had all memories with emotionally upsetting material blocked from zer and zer only; the rest of us were fully aware that zie was missing them.

What do you do if someone forgets something?
    If it's something like taking out the trash, we just tell them.  If it's something that's been blocked, there is a good reason why, and as long as there's no pressing need, we let them work it out themselves.  Breaking blocks usually takes gentility and subtlety; smashing them through brute force is usually a one-way express ticket to Crashland, and not a pretty sight.

Can you read each other's thoughts/feelings?
    Generally, yes, but it depends on who's doing the sending, who's doing the receiving, whether the receiver is distracted, and so on.  For instance, Mac can't read Gigi at all, but he generally knows everything that's going through Rogan's head at any given moment.  Everyone has their varying levels of sensitivity.

How do you guys talk to each other privately?
    We go in another room, and as long as we aren't actively trying to eavesdrop, that can work.  Rogan and Mac also have their own personal radio station wavelength.

Can you guys keep secrets from each other?
    Only with much effort and it usually doesn't work for long.  Our record for keeping secrets is a few hours for Mac, a week for the rest of us--and that was because everyone was really, really trying not to know.  Getting Christmas presents for each other without giving the game away is tough.  Mac is pretty much impossible to keep anything from.

Have one of you guys ever come out and had no clue where you were or what you were doing?
    Yes, but only a couple of times.  It was decidedly unfun, and we made sure to start paying more attention so as to avoid them.  Luckily, we're co-conscious enough that it was easy to fix.

What is the radio station?
    Mac's term for the constant thought-feed he has into our heads.  He hears every thought we have, no censoring.  He can't turn down the volume or turn it off, only ignore it, and he's made the most of it, mostly focusing it on Rogan.  We have no idea why he has it.  Rogan has developed one for him, but not nearly as clear or constant.

Do you all have your own pasts/memories ect. that aren't part of the "original host" or is it just Mac?
    Just Mac, though we all have our individual sets of memories for stuff we've done in headspace. (For instance, if Gigi punches Mac and nobody else is there or paying attention, only he and her will have the memories.)

And if one person does have their own memories that don't involve the "original host" are they still considered an "alter"?
    Keep in mind how we define 'alter' is purely idiosyncratic. We've known folks who IDed as alters who had totally different memories and personal histories, we've known people who don't ID as alters but share common memories. The term is what you make of it.

How does integration work, regarding system memory?  For example, does Miranda still retain some of Lollyanna's memories that can be distinguished from her own?
   Miranda: As for our memories, Lolly and I were always very close, and it's difficult to differentiate one set of memories from another, even before we integrated. There are still some things that I remember that are Lolly's, and things that were my old self's, but I identify both sets of memories as mine, even if they aren't the same.


SECTION IV: Headspace

What is headspace?
    Inner worlds, subjective reality, alternate realities, whatever.  Basically, it is the space between our ears in which we interact with each other.  Everyone's is different.  Some people don't have one.

Do you have a headspace?
    Yes, we do, though it is among the most simple of folks we know with headspaces.  It is composed of two things: the Void, and the House.  And Falcon's Gate, which looks like a big mossy stone pi sign, but it tends to wander around or vanish when not in use.

Can you do anything in headspace?
    Everyone's headspace is different, but our headspace strictly follows most of the basic tenets of conventional reality: you can get injured and feel pain normally, you heal at a normal human rate, you can't shape-shift, and you can still do stupid things like slip on banana peels or fall out of bed.  It diverges from conventional reality in a few major ways: we don't need to fulfill bodily needs like eating, we can conjure objects from the Void, and a couple of us have, for lack of a better word, superpowers.

What's the Void like?
    The Void is the formless ether of our brainstuff, and its only distinguishing characteristic is that it appears to be blackish smog.  It's an endless sphere with no horizon, no flavor, and no temperature.  In all ways, it is completely neutral.  Though not an individual in its own right, it acts of its own volition to make things a little easier on us--for instance, it will banish objects if we haven't used them in a while, or put us in bed if we fall asleep elsewhere.  It has also been known to forcibly drag one of us under if it feels we are too unstable to be around even headspace, refuse to give us things that it decides are bad, and freak out if we try and get it to do something it doesn't understand.  Most importantly, it seals our headspace.  No living beings come in or leave unless you carefully make other arrangements.

What's the House like?
    It's a five-roomed monstrosity that Sneak and Rogan created back in '07 for security and privacy purposes.  It looks like a mutant igloo made of concrete, because we are not known for our architectural savvy.  You can see a little MS Paint diagram of it here.

What's Falcon's Gate?
    Falcon tended to just randomly pop up in our home without any warning.  Since he tended to arrive in the common room, which also happens to be Rogan and Mac's bedroom, we decided that we needed a better way for him to come and go.  Thus, the Gate, which beeps when he's trying to get in, so we can come and let him in rather than just suddenly having a middle-aged man appear in the bedroom.

Can people from other places enter or leave your headspace?
    Our headspace used to be more open, but in the past few years, we've sealed it.  Though not on the up and up of such things ourself, according to the more mystically oriented of our peers, our headspace is pretty much locked tight as a safe.  Nowadays, nobody comes in or out, except for Falcon (who has VIP status due to coming here for nigh on a decade) and occassionally Mac's mom, who required very careful machinations.  Once we gave the Void the order not to let anyone new in, it did so with a vengeance.

Have you ever had people arrive in your headspace that you didn't want there?
    Yes.  We've had one invader, and one accident with Falcon unintentionally bringing a creepy-crawly from... somewhere... in with him.  Once our attention was brought to them, they weren't hard to get rid of (after all, it's our mind, with our rules--we control everything), so it was more embarrassing than anything.  If you want details, just ask about the Craig Invasion or the Giant Fucking Spider and watch us wince and groan.

What's the superpowers thing about?
    Our subjective reality exists purely in our mind, and therefore it follows our mind's rules.  One of the weird things that comes from that is our mental strengths have some more physical applications in a purely mental world.  Sneak and Rogan are the creative engines of the system, and as a result, they can conjure more long-lasting, complicated things than the rest of us.  Gigi has barely any conjuration ability, but tends to appear in rooms without using doors, move at bizarre jerky speeds, and also has the ability to sedate all of us except Mac.  Miranda and Mac don't have much unusual about them, but they do tend to know what everyone else is doing, even out of their view.  And Sneak can lift very heavy objects and fly a little--superhero fan that zie is.

That's so cool!
    Not really.  Headspace tends to conform to our wills, so there isn't really need for these abilities.  Why would we need Sneak to move furniture for us when we can just banish and conjure it up again where we want?  Why would Gigi need to sprint at freaky speeds when there's nowhere to go to?  Mainly, conjuration is great for quick set-up and clean-up of things, clairvoyance helps our communication, and Gigi's sedation powers helps ease suffering.  That's about it.

Do you give each other gifts in the material world or within the headspace?
    We can give gifts in headspace, but we tend not to. We just don't use them, and when we can conjure/banish almost anything we want, there isn't much point. We do have a few though.  We do regularly buy each other things in the material world though.

Where did your headspace come from?
    The House and Falcon's Gate had to be expressly created by Sneak and Rogan together.  The Void just organically grew up around us over the years.  Miranda argues that it's a manifestation of our subconscious, but whatever.

SECTION V: Being Us

What does being a multiple feel like?
    It's like having a house with flatmates, only the house is in your head, very difficult to leave, and doesn't quite follow the rules of physics.

What're the good and bad sides of being multiple?
    The good: division of labor, built-in support network, and you're never alone.  The bad: sacrificing your individual identity for the sake of a public face, sharing your body and doing things with it you might not like, and you're never alone.

How does splitting/integration work?
    In our experience, integration and splitting are cousins, phenomena that occur when one system member has either too much or too little to carry alone. If there's too much, they fracture into other system members to hold it all; if there's too little, they collapse in on themselves and integrate.

Are you past lives?
    No.

Do you have any metaphysical powers?
    We dreamed about a Spyro 2 level before the game came out.  All hail our magical hoodoo.

So what made you realize you were multiple?
    Our thoughts were in dialogue form, and tended to use the pronoun 'we' above 'I.'  There were different voices, self-images, and personalities behind those thoughts.  We would have conversations, manage different tasks, try to kill each other, and make references to each other in journals.  And then there was the one time that suddenly our journal-writing started referring to Lollyanna in the third person and espousing a completely different viewpoint.  There's only so many years you can do that in denial.

How long have you known you were multiple?
    We became multiple in 2000, and were aware of it, but refused to believe it or accept it until 2007.

Do you think you might be faking it?
    We flogged ourself for five and a half years over how we must've been faking it, until Miranda trounced Rogan in two or three hours of rational debate.  Gigi had a massive identity crisis/psychotic fit that involved her running around headspace screaming, tearing books off shelves, and declaring everyone and everything not real before she finally collapsed in tears and accepted her existence as an independent person.  We've earned our faith in our existence.

How do you know you're real?
   How do you?


SECTION VI: Therapy

Do you want to integrate?
    Permanently?  No.  Mac would be heartbroken if he lost his hubby.

Are you in therapy?
   In and out.  Our multiplicity is the backdrop, not the problem.  We like having a doctor for our mind, but have problems with the industry.

What kind of shrink did/do you see?
    She is a social worker with eclectic style who follows the tenets of relational therapy.  She had little experience with multiples at the start of our time together, but her combined knowledge of GLBT issues, trauma, and relationship group counseling serves us well.

What are your opinions on therapy?
    It is like any other tool: handled correctly in good hands, it is a huge force for good that can immensely improve well-being and level of functioning.  Handled poorly in bad hands, it can fuck you up something awful.  We generally recommend therapy, but can't encourage people enough to be very careful of who they choose.


SECTION VII: Fronting

How do you decide who fronts?
    Usually, we automatically slip into whatever person is most competent for the situation, or is most interested in interacting with it.  We each have certain situations that automatically bring us out--for instance, feeling in danger will immediately pull either Rogan or Gigi to the front.  We can also schedule things ahead of time, or forcibly remove someone from the front, but that's difficult.

Why is removing someone from the front hard?
    First, because they might resist.  If Gigi's taken front and doesn't want to leave, it'll take nothing less than a full-system dogpile to cart her off.  Second, the front tends to freeze in periods of stress as a defense mechanism: the fewer people who front, the fewer people who can get hurt.

Could you explain what you mean by that, more specifically?
    The front will freeze, locking whoever's up front up there until the stressful/dangerous thing is over. By forbidding switching, it minimizes the damage so it only gets inflicted on one person. As an example, say someone beats us up. Generally, Gigi or Rogan will get pitched abruptly to front (if they're not already) and locked up there until it's over. That way, only one of us get beat up, and the rest of us can help them through it.

Is there any time when none of you are in charge?
    Yes.  Generally repetitive tasks requiring little thought.

Is there any time where you get stuck out front?
    Yes.  There's pretty much nothing you can do about it but try to calm down, wait it out, or take a nap.  Sleep tends to reset our front.

What's being unified?
    We give up our individual voices and try to behave the way we feel we ought to.  It ranges from all of us fronting at the same time, or from one of us just mimicking as best they can.  It can also mean a sort of temporary integration where everyone but Mac joins up.


SECTION VIII: Imaginary Friends, Soulbonds, and Other Passerby

What's the difference between alters, soulbonds and imaginary friends?
    The boundaries can be very blurry, but in our case, it is a matter of where we come from.  Our general rule of thumb goes: alters split off the mythical original girl, soulbonds come from a story, and the imaginary friends just pop up.

Do you have soulbonds and imaginary friends as well?
    Yes.  Our system makeup has fluctuated wildly in demographic over the years.  Currently, we are overwhelmingly made up of alter types, but it wasn't always like that.

So which bonds are there right now?
    Just Mac.  And like we said, he really doesn't care for the label; he just sees us as a historian who got some stuff wrong.

What about imaginary friends?
    Just Falcon Stranger, and he's highly irregular.

Do all your bonds/imaginary friends front?
    No.  It's quite rare.

So which of them have fronted?
    Mac, M.D., and Falcon.  Mac and M.D. are/were system members, and Falcon is a force of nature.

How does Mac differ from you alters?
    He had a life before us; he only came here when he died, rather violently.  Therefore, he doesn't have our memories, doesn't believe himself to be genetically part of "the family," isn't affected by unifying, being blurry, or Gigi's sedation powers, and has a harder time with the body than we do.  He's also right-handed (all of us are lefties) and doesn't feel pain or fatigue the way the rest of us do.

How did the soulbonds/imaginary friends get there?
    For the most part, no clue.  Falcon refuses to say, but he comes under his own steam, and needs some sort of external apparatus to reach us.  None of the others ever told us.  As for Mac... it's a long story.  Just ask him.


SECTION IX: Individual Differences:

Do you guys have different mannerisms?
    Hell yes.

Are your voices different?
    Again, yes.  Different accents, different tones and inflections.  We affect a unified voice for closet business.  Mac, however, has a thick, inimitable, utterly irremovable Southern accent.  This has caused us aggravation, because it means he can't do the unified voice, giving us the options of only him being able to speak, or not being able to speak at all.  A few times, we've had people who only know Mac's voice come up to us while we're speaking with people who don't know Mac's voice, and our brain breaks as we frantically try to manage half-and-half. (It's not at all easy, and we generally do a rotten job.)

Are you different ages?
    Yes.  Gigi is about ten and doesn't age physically.  Rogan and Miranda are in their twenties and age at a normal human rate.  Mac is in his early thirties and ages at a normal human rate.  Sneak is a teenager but has given up attaching a specific age to zerself, due to developing in weird spurts and bounds.  Falcon is somewhere between forty-two and his mid-fifties and appears to age at a normal human rate.

Do you have differing moralities?
    Yes.  For example, Gigi believes in the death penalty; Miranda and Sneak don't.

Do you have different physical illnesses/symptoms?
    Yes, but not the way you think.  Almost all pain, sickness, fatigue, and discomfort gets forwarded to Rogan, which leads to odd things happening like Sneak going, "Ow!  Rogan, stop making my back hurt!" Rogan and Gigi have been known to faint at needles before, but Sneak and Mac don't.  But if the body's sick, we all have to take that into account.  Sneak might not identify as though the illness is attached to zer, but zie still knows better than to try skydiving or something.

Do you have different skills?
    Yes.  Rogan's better at long working sprees.  Sneak is great with raw creativity.  Mac is great with customer service.  And so on and so forth.

Do you wake up at different times?
    Yes, sometimes.  Good luck trying to get someone to front while they're asleep.  However, the body's limits are absolute; it needs to rest, so we try to synchronize our sleep cycle with it.  We have yet to have the body awake with no one to run it.

Who is the strongest in the system?
    Gigi.  She's a juggernaut.  Rogan, who is the next most powerful, needs Mac with him to be able to withstand her, and she'd still trounce his ass in a fight.  Falcon is also a complete hauler, from all we can tell, but we've yet to see him in full action.

Do you have differences of opinion?
    All the time.

Have you ever had a hard time choosing someone to vote for?
   No, thank goodness.  That would suck.

Do you fight?
    We used to.  Then we realized it didn't help much and Miranda banned all violence in the House.

What happens if you disagree on something?
    We beat each other with planks until someone submits.  No, we talk it out, like any group of people do.  If it's a case of irreconciliable differences, we end up deciding who has precedence over the issue.  So, for instance, if someone insults Miranda and Rogan gets up in arms about it and wants to confront him, but she says that is morally incorrect and that it is better to apologize... unfortunately, she'll win that argument, because she's the one who got insulted.

Do you all have separate dreams?
   Sort of.  We will sometimes dream each other's dreams, but we'll feel that they're not ours--for instance, if Rogan dreams he's Gigi fighting evil teddy bears, he's likely going to assume that that's Gigi's dream.

Are any of you not human?
    Not currently.  Though if you really dig back, you could argue Rogan is half-alien, but he never mentions it. (His heritage is... complicated.)


SECTION X: Uncloseting

What's uncloseting?
    It's coming out as multiple to someone.

Who have you uncloseted to?
    Parents, friends, our brother, our shrink, and pretty much everyone online.  Nowadays, we rarely have to come out online, because we're so open about it.

How have people responded to uncloseting?
    Their mileage may vary.  Some have accepted it without a hitch; a couple have just plain behaved badly.

*gasp* You came out to your parents?  OMG, how did that go?
    It goes up and down.  We'd rather not discuss it right now.

How out do you plan to be?
    As out as we can.  We are already out socially with people we care about.  We aspire to being out at work and to all our family too.


SECTION XI: Gender and Sexuality

What are y'all's sexualities?
    Mac is bisexual, preferring women pretty much always, a few genderqueer folks, and Rogan.  Miranda is straight.  Sneak and Gigi are asexual.  Rogan is demisexual queer gay.

What are y'all's genders?
    Mac and Falcon are cis men.  Rogan's a trans man.  Miranda is a cis woman.  Sneak is an androgyne.  Gigi thinks gender is stupid and refuses to take part in such silliness.

What pronouns do I use?
    'They' is just fine, unless you're speaking about one of us specifically.  Call Miranda and Gigi 'she.' Call Falcon, Rogan, and Mac 'he.'  Call Sneak 'zie.' If you can not manage this, don't use any pronouns at all and keep your mouth shut about how hard it is.  Also, no need to mention that you mean 'you' in the plural sense; we generally assume such, unless you're a Southerner.

How do you handle dating?
    Generally, we don't, not externally.  It can quickly become a huge clusterfuck.  Miranda is the only one who'd be interested right now anyway, and she doesn't front so much these days.

Are you monogamous?
    Yes, all of us are.

How long have Rogan and Mac been together?
    June of '07.  Miranda jokes that it was obvious for quite a while before that.  They've been married since November 29, 2009.

I'm really curious about how Rogan and Mac got married. How did that work?
    Easy, really. They rented chapel space, invited their friends, baked a cake, played music, had a great service, kissed, put on their ring, and went out for Thai!


SECTION XII: Individual System Members: Gigi

Is Gigi transgendered?
    She thinks that all of gender is stupid and wants nothing to do with it.  Claiming to be transgendered would require her to have something to do with it.

But doesn't Gigi use words like 'girl' and 'she' in relation to herself?
    Yes, but they are purely for convenience--she's used to calling herself that, and having to make the jump to gender-neutral pronouns like Sneak did requires her to have more to do with gender than she wants.

Gigi's wrong about something.  I told her and explained all my reasons, and she just ignored me.  Why?
   Gigi is a precocious ten-year-old, but she's still just that: ten years old.  She is also very stubborn and single-minded: once she has an idea in her head, that's pretty much the end of it.  Try not to kill yourself getting her to understand; she'll figure it out when she's ready.

Why does Gigi scream EAT PEOPLE at random moments?
    Long story.  Really, it's just her favorite thing to say.  She uses it for everything: delight, disgust, frustration...

Why doesn't Gigi age?
   No idea.  She was about ten years old when she got here by '02, and she's about ten years old now.  Some things don't change.

Can I talk about mature subjects with Gigi?
   Generally, yes.  She understands nasty subjects, and can even enjoy them.  Just keep in mind she is not afraid to hit you with a big brutal Clue-By-Four, and she's completely asexual.  If you try and talk about your sex life to her, she'll just hiss at you and wander off.


SECTION XIII: Individual System Members: Sneak

Can I talk about mature subjects with Sneak?
   Try and get a feel for zer and zer developmental level before talking explicitly.  Zie understands basic ideas of  sexuality, but violence and cruelty can really upset zer.  Sex often just goes right over zer head.

Who's Sneak's favorite superhero?
   Oh, zie has tons of them.  Blue Beetle II, Booster Gold, Mary Marvel, and Ice are just some of them.

Shouldn't Sneak be sheltered and protected?
   Zie was for a long time.  Now zie's trying to grow into zer own and learn to deal with the hard parts of life, along with the sunnier moments.  Zie's a lot stronger than people give zer credit for.

Is Sneak transgendered?
    Zie identifies as an androgyne, neither a man nor a woman.  Zie doesn't have a huge attachment to the word 'transgendered' but will take it grudgingly if pushed.


SECTION XIV: Individual System Members: Miranda

Is Miranda transgendered?
    No.  In fact, she is the only person in the system who can't be construed as trans in any way!

Does Miranda have a last name?
   Not currently.  She's like Cher.

Is Miranda the host?
    We have no idea.  The person we thought was the host integrated into her.  That's the best we can do.

Why is Miranda referred to as the 'omniscient narrator'?
   Because she sees most and knows more.  Her balanced attitude makes her very good at reporting everything going on objectively, and helping solutions.  Thus the nickname.

If Miranda knows everything and is more hosty than anyone else, why isn't she main fronter?
    She doesn't want to be.  She's too used to having Rogan and Mac take out the garbage and wash dishes and do laundry for her.


SECTION XV: Individual System Members: Rogan

Is Rogan transgendered?
    Yes.

Why does Rogan run the show?
   God only knows.  He's good with money and takes out the garbage regularly?


SECTION XVI: Individual System Members: Mac

Is Mac transgendered?
   No.  He had twenty-seven years of a body that reflected his self-image, and has been raised unambiguously male, and feels that he does not share the experience.  It's only recently that he's had to deal with frustrations like people calling him "little miss."

Is Mac a soulbond?
   Depends who you believe.  Our old interpretation went something like: we wrote a story, where Mac was a two-bit character.  We killed him off in his first appearance.  We felt bad for him, and wrote about him more, and he became so well-developed he manifested here.  Mac's interpretation involves quantum physics and boils down to: his universe had some tenuous connection to the subjective universe in our head, enough for us to write half-wrong things about it.  When he died, the connection between his universe and ours was enough for him to slip here, so that his life with us is God giving him the chance to live again.

If Mac knows the most about what goes through everyone's heads, does it mean he can reach the dreams, too?
   Mac: I can't really hear dreams. When Loony-Brain falls asleep, their radio stations get softer and more blurry, until it's more a white noise machine. I can't tell what they're dreaming. However, I have managed to enter their dreams sometimes--I once managed to break into one of Rogan's nightmares to get him out, and he's broken into one of mine before too. We've also managed to pull each other into our dreams before and share them; it's usually a lot of fun. It's not something we can control, though.


SECTION XVII: Individual System Members: Falcon Stranger

Is Falcon transgendered?
    Ahahaha.  No.  No, he is not.  At all.

I asked Falcon a question; why won't he answer?
    Falcon doesn't believe in answering puny mortals' questions.  It would ruin his aura of mystery.

Why doesn't Falcon interact with the outside world?
   He feels like it has absolutely nothing to do with him.  Over the years, he's growing to remember a few folks though--mainly the people who flirt with him.  So yeah, if you want him to remember who the hell you are, hit on him.

What exactly IS Falcon, anyway?
    We have no idea.  Projection of fatherhood and masculinity?  Some random metaphysical babysitter?  Food poisoning?  The choice is yours!

Why is Falcon drawn as a coffin in a hat?
    Because Gigi drew him once, and Gigi draws like a young child, so he appeared to be a boxy shape with a circle on top, which wore a hat.  One of our friends remarked that he looked like a coffin in a hat, doodled him as such, and that was that.

Why are Gigi and Falcon so close?
    Falcon was more active in our system way back in '02.  Nowadays, all the people in our system from that time have split, integrated, or gone home, except for Gigs.  She's the only one left.
This is the converse piece to Rude Things to Ask Loony-Brain. Because certain basic questions, we get asked so many times that it seems easiest to just put it all together for others to find out.

This doesn't introduce people to us as people very well, but this thing is ridiculously long as it is.

Got more questions? Ask them here and we'll put them up!
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DoorStop1227 Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012
So... what's this about Craig Invasion and Giant Fucking Spider?
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thatfoxfacedbastard Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
Lorelei: Sank you. Sank you so damn much. Ve all suddenly understand myself und most of ze ozers so much better now. VE all newer had head of "Soulbonds" und now Sigmund, Pen, Me und some of ze ozers who come here haff a better understandingk. Sank you. I can't say it enough.
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GaaHina-lrvr Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2011
You make a few references to how multiple systems can be started by boredom. Sorry, but what do you mean by that? Like, someone is really bored and just makes a new person? How is that, um, legit I suppose? How does that work?

Awesome job by the ways dearies. This cleared up all my questions, as well as ones I hadn't even know I was thinking. You're all very clever. Or at least, whoever actually worked on this is very clever. Another question, who put this mostly together? Or was it a total group effort. Thank you so much.
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2011
Having never gotten a system member through boredom, dunno that I can really offer a proper explanation. All I know is that it does exist. I think it's like... well, you want to go and meet someone, so you go out and find them. There's no pressing NEED for you to go visit your neighbor, but you want to get to know them, and then maybe later you become roommates.

This was mostly a group effort; me and Sneak likely did most of it, but often when we're working on general info things like this, we're more focused on writing it than who is doing it.

--Rogan
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Zed-with-Fangs Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
going back to "i would like to talk to (insert name)"
let's say i was talking to gigi but i wished to talked to rogan. wouldn't gigi see that as rude?
I mean it's her time being the front, she has a right to be the front for as long as she wants to. isn't it rude for me to cut off her time? (also applies to the other members as well)
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2011
It is okay, it is not rude. I can share the front with Rogan, and I can always say, "No, he is not available right now." It is like calling your friend's house; if you get your friend's mother instead, it is okay to say, "May I speak to my friend?" If the time is very important to me, I will tell you. But usually it is okay; I can always come out some other time.

--Gigi
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Zed-with-Fangs Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Do the other members share the same outlook?
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Rubiconia Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for writing this. I had no idea about any of this, and I feel like you've just blown out a whole cliff-face of ignorance. Makes me a little jealous, actually. My headspace feels kinda lonely now. Though I write a lot of fiction and my characters sometimes set up a small temporary shop in there.
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2011
Aw, thank you! We're glad you liked it.

And have you ever looked up soulbonding? It might prove to be more relevant to you.
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Rubiconia Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, I think you're right. I'm definitely off to do some more investigation.
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pradlee Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2011
(don't know if you'll find this question offensive, if so, please bite my head off and yell at me and i'm very very very sorry)
would each of you prefer to have a body of your own? i can see how it could be a huge problem trans-wise and just individuality-wise to have to compromise over the body

i also don't understand why Mac and Falcon are cis (though this may just be because i have a slightly different definition than you). to me, trans is a disconnect between the mind and the body- the body just doesn't fit how you feel/should look, so if a man has a non-male body, he is intrinsically trans. (although i also know an FTM person who disagrees with the term 'FTM' because sie never identified with being a woman and if, as a man, sie has a female body, it belongs to a man, so it must be masculine even if it has traditionally feminine features...ummm, was that clear?)
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2011
Sorry for our late response; we don't have web at home so we've gotten rather sporadic in our presence!

would each of you prefer to have a body of your own?

Rogan: It's a trade-off. In my case, I feel no desire, because I've altered this body to fit me, and I've grown used to it. Also, having a corporeal dick would be immensely distracting. And I like being able to feel my husband's emotions and thoughts.

Mac: Yeah, same here. I like the closeness and the benefits of this body.

Sneak: It's MINE!

Gigi: *shrug* If I had my own body, I'd have to put meat in it. Yuck.

Miranda: And I'd have to front and DO things. I'm a lady of leisure; I have man-slaves to do that for me now.

Mac: As for me being cis... I had a traditional male body for a good twenty-seven years, before I came here. I didn't ever have to deal with the crap Ro did--people treated me as a man, I never had to fight for medical care, or for people to call me 'he,' or any of that. Even now, he protects me from a lot of it. And I don't see this body as being 'mine,' it's just the house I live in. So I'm not trans; I just appear that way to folks around me. And Falcon's here so rarely, he doesn't see this body as his either; he just visits some times, and rarely even fronts with it.
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pradlee Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2011
nah, it's okay, i know how it is to be without a web connection- seriously *sucks* especially with homework assignments going on ):

cool, sounds like you guys are well-adjusted. Rogan, since you've altered the body to fit you best, does anyone else get jealous/envious/dislike it?

And (a very universal, open-ended, non-specific question), what do you guys think about inhabiting a body? obviously, all of you have a certain disconnect. same for me- i'm borderline trans, there's just stuff wrong with my body that isn't how it's supposed to be (though it's completely 'normal' from society's point of view) so the body isn't completely *mine*. do you think most people are like this, or that they're comfortable in their own bodies?
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2012
Omg such a late response. <.< Sorry! D:

We're all okay with the body as is. We've sort of compromised so as to fit all of us, and we seem to have hit that middle ground.

I'm not sure how other people feel about their bodies. That's their business, I suppose. As for us... well, it's like having a car. You usually don't think much about the experience of having a car. You just use it. Our body is healthy and strong and has served us very well, so we feel quite happy with it. ^_^ It's done a good job!

--Sneak
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AglaChrysaetos Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2011
Hi cousins,

Um...I hope this is an ok question to ask. But what should someone do if they know a multiple system where some or most of the people are, well, jerks?

Not ordinary pests, I mean. Actual destructive nasty people, at least if their actions are anything to go by when they're driving; maybe they're just as bad in headspace, too, I dunno. Yeah, this isn't hypothetical. These people-I'm not sure how many there are, they play a lot close to the chest-they've done real damage, especially to their poor SO.

I wish I could provide more details about them, but like I said, they play it close. There's two members for certain we know of-let's call them E and M-and neither of them seems to be the 'original'. I don't know if an original even exists anymore. There's definitely more than two members-it's just that E and M are the only ones we actually know anything about.

E and M have both done their share of damage, in different ways. E has serious rage issues-he'll just fly into rages and then stuff gets destroyed and people get hurt. M doesn't have the same temper, but he's a master of viciousness and calm, planned violence(physical and verbal). As you can imagine, both have hurt their SO. It's really not pretty.

Me and a few other friends of the SO(zie doesn't have many, M or possibly another personality is a control-freak and made hir cut off contacts with a lot of people...you know how abusers work...)are seriously worried. And, well...we dunno what to do about it. I mean, we theoretically know how to help the SO-it's easy enough to find folk who know how to help singlet abuse survivors and trauma victims, there's a standard narrative-but what about the multiple-system? 'Keep them away from the SO, protect hir from them' is the only obvious bit. They have problems, see, that's obvious, but I'm not sure how many are multiple-related and how many are just *problems*. They don't seem to have the 'not being aware of what other system members are doing' problem, but again, I'm not sure...

Sorry to dump this on you all...It's just. I know almost nothing about multiple stuff...
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2011
Oh jeez. We are really not a pro at a situation like that; I dunno that we could offer much help. I'd say that keep them away and protect is still perfectly good advice, but otherwise, I'm not sure there's much you could do differently than if an abuser was singlet. All I can say is get the hell away from that system. Multiplicity doesn't cause abusive jackassery, but it can make things more complicated.

Best of luck, and sorry we couldn't be of more help.

Miranda/Rogan
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AglaChrysaetos Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2012
Wow, been almost a year.

Just wanted to give you an update... The system E and M are part of was sectioned. (In case you Yanks don't have that expression, means 'involuntary commitment'.) That was a while ago, and as far as I know they're still there.

Mats, the SO, managed to split up with them shortly before that happened. It was a painful breakup, and Mats is still a mess. There hasn't been any contact between them as far as I know.

On the one hand I am SO glad that Mats isn't in danger from them anymore. On the other...I /know/ how multiples get treated in the mental health system. E and M were abusive jerks, but do they deserve to die for that? Will the help that an establishment who think all multiplicity is pathological try to give even work?

I don't know. There don't seem to be any right answers. And I confess to a sort of horrible gladness that dealing with E and M and company isn't something I have to do anymore.

But Mats is safe, now, and that has to take priority. And I'm going to bat for hir. This is friendship, this is how I roll.

Best of luck to all of you in the Baaing Treehouse.
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2012
Different establishments run in different ways, and some are more humane than others. Since I don't know the situation, all I can say is that it sounds like your friend got away, and that they're safe, and on that level, the one that we're certain of, it's good that they're safe.

Sorry for being so late in this response! Thank you for letting us know, and good luck to your friend.

--Rogan/Miranda
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ilyahx Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2011
I'm sorry if this is a rude question, but I'm really curious about how Rogan and Mac got married. How did that work?
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2011
Easy, really. We rented chapel space, invited our friends, baked a cake, played music, had a great service, kissed, put on our ring, and went out for Thai!

--Mac
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ilyahx Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2011
Aww, sounds amazing!
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SilverRayn Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2011
Hello! This has been super insightful - thank you all for writing it! I'm a psych student, and the only thing I have ever heard about DID was that it was generally associated with heavy childhood trauma. The idea that it does not have to be something overtly negative is still taking some time for my mind to wrap around, but I'm glad that there are people like you who are so open to talking honestly about it.

As I was reading, one question did come to mind: how does integration work, and how does that affect things within the system? For example, does Miranda still retain some of Lollyanna's memories that can be distinguished from her own?
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2011
In my experience, integration and splitting are cousins, phenomena that occur when one system member has either too much or too little to carry alone. If there's too much, they fracture into other system members to hold it all; if there's too little, they collapse in on themselves and integrate.

As for our memories, Lolly and I were always very close, and it's difficult to differentiate one set of memories from another, even before we integrated. There are still some things that I remember that are Lolly's, and things that were my old self's, but I identify both sets of memories as mine, even if they aren't the same.

--Miranda
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YukiShuiski Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Hmm...so I have a question. Do you all have your own pasts/memories ect. that aren't part of the "original host" or is it just Mac? And if one person does have their own memories that don't involve the "original host" are they still considered an "alter"?

I'm just confused on it and hoping you guys could shed some light =/ I have my own past/memories and so do some of the other people in here that our original host doesn't have but she can see them as if they were her memories. And I've been doing some research on it and most if not all the things are pointing to "you aren't an alter if you have your own past/memories that don't involve the body."

Thanks!

-Gato
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010
Do you all have your own pasts/memories ect. that aren't part of the "original host" or is it just Mac?

Just Mac, though we all have our individual sets of memories for stuff we've done in headspace. (For instance, if I punch Mac and nobody else is there or paying attention, only he and I will have the memories.)

And if one person does have their own memories that don't involve the "original host" are they still considered an "alter"?

Keep in mind how we define 'alter' is purely idiosyncratic. We've known folks who IDed as alters who had totally different memories and personal histories, we've known people who don't ID as alters but share common memories. The term is what you make of it.

In our case, the situation has yet to come up, but if someone identifies as an alter, then that's what they are, whatever their memories and crap.

--Rgan
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WebberErikPhan Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010
Our system consists of Soul Bounds that have lived before if that makes sense, mainly from versions of "The Phantom of the Opera". We are also a Natural system who came to keep the child (Core) company and deal with her emotionally abusive mother. We can leave the 'body' as well.

(Webber)Erik
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010
Nice to meet you! ^_^

--Sneak
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WebberErikPhan Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2010
*bows* pleasure is all ours.

(Kay)Erik
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ten-tackles Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010
One question:
In the fronting section, you mentioned that "the front tends to freeze in periods of stress as a defense mechanism". Could you explain what you mean by that, more specifically?
Thank you so much for this, it was an interesting read and as always incredibly informative.
~Drake, for The Storm System
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010
"In the fronting section, you mentioned that "the front tends to freeze in periods of stress as a defense mechanism". Could you explain what you mean by that, more specifically?"

Sure. The front will freeze, locking whoever's up front up there until the stressful/dangerous thing is over. By forbidding switching, it minimizes the damage so it only gets inflicted on one person. As an example, say someone beats u up. Generally, Gigi or Rogan will get pitched abruptly to front (if they're not already) and locked up there until it's over. That way, only one of us get beat up, and the rest of us can help them through it.

Does that make sense?

--Rogan and Miranda
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ten-tackles Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010
Yes, that makes perfect sense. Thank you.
~Drake
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Meeresbande Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010
We like the way you explain stuff!
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2010
Thanks!
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Lawenta Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. Kudos for the effort! (Though it's probably easier than write various bits of it again and again.)

I have one more bundle of questions if I can: What about dreaming? Do you all have separate dreams? Do you even regularly dream / remember dreaming? And if Mac knows the most about what goes through everyone's heads, does it mean he can reach the dreams, too?

Heh, I just realized... do you give each other gifts in the material world or within the headspace? :)
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010
No problem!

Do you all have separate dreams?
Sort of. We might be aware of someone else's dream, without feeling that it was "ours." So, for instance, I might remember some dream Gigi has, but won't identify it as mine.

Do you even regularly dream / remember dreaming?
Mac doesn't much. The rest of us dream regularly and vividly.

And if Mac knows the most about what goes through everyone's heads, does it mean he can reach the dreams, too?
Mac: I can't really hear dreams. When Loony-Brain falls asleep, their radio stations get softer and more blurry, until it's more a white noise machine. I can't tell what they're dreaming. However, I have managed to enter their dreams sometimes--I once managed to break into one of Rogan's nightmares to get him out, and he's broken into one of mine before too. We've also managed to pull each other into our dreams before and share them; it's usually a lot of fun. It's not something we can control, though.

Heh, I just realized... do you give each other gifts in the material world or within the headspace?
We can give gifts in headspace, but we tend not to. We just don't use them, and when we can conjure/banish almost anything we want, there isn't much point. We do have a few though.
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Lawenta Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Dreams are interesting. :nod: I know my POV changes when I dream - sometimes I'm "me" with basically the same appearance and traits, sometimes I'm an outside spectator, and sometimes - though rarely - I'm someone else both physically and mentally.
It's a pity you can't pull each other out of nightmares or share the dreams whenever you want, that would be useful and a lot of fun, respectively... but I guess there are nightmares that need to be dreamt through and dreams that need to be private... :)

Ad gifts: It's true that material gifts require more effort... but I'd be tempted by the ability to give exactly what I wanted to give without settling for second or third best options. In the end I might end up giving both. :D

Thank you for the answers!
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010
Until we came out to ourself about our multi, we were actually very rarely ourself in dreams. We were far more often someone completely new--an anthropomorphic sword-fighting fox, a blind boy, etc. Since then, our dreams have gotten a lot more likely to be one/all of us.

And regarding the gifts, they tend to require a good amount of brain bandwidth to make, so gifts tend to be a little... lacking. For instance, if I wanted to conjure up a video game, I have to come up with every level, every control, every item, lay everything out... it takes a massive amount of mental bandwidth, and really isn't worth the effort, because practically all our mental resources would be devoted to just making the game exist. We wouldn't be able to do anything else. A mental book is the same problem. (We had a bunch lying around for decoration, until Mac picked one up and said, "Guys, all of these are blank. What gives?" We realized mentally conceiving every word on every page was... no.)

So generally, we can only do simple things. Usually, it actually ends up easier to either give the information raw (we play music in here or tell stories all the time, but never make books or music players) or give a corporeal gift, which is very concrete and won't randomly futz out on you.

--Rogan
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Lawenta Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the answer. I was trying to come up with something longer, but all I can really do is write this somewhere into my memory and say something like: "Interesting..." And thank you again. :)
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chameleons-breath Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2010   Writer
hahaha, you guys are really good at this sort of thing, aren't you? :) we're really jealous of you.
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010
We've been doing it a little while. *laughs* After a few years, we've gotten used to it.

--Rogan
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awesomesocks1995 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Would 'How long have you known about your multiple personalities?' be an ok question?
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010
First off, please don't call us personalities. It feels dehumanizing.

As for how long we've known, we've been multiple since 2000, and though we were aware of it, we didn't actually accept it or tell anyone until 2007.

--Rogan
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awesomesocks1995 Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
My apologies, I didn't mean to offend you in any way!!
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010
It's okay, no worries. Just call us people from here on out, and we'll get on fine.
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ErinPtah Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
You're missing a closing italic tag, after "How did the soulbonds/imaginary friends get there?" And Miranda's header is missing its bold tags.

There were questions here I wouldn't even have thought to ask, but I enjoyed the answers all the same. If you ever feel like going into more detail about some of the former/departed members of your system, I'd love to read it. In the meantime, thanks for writing all this up =)
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010
Thanks; we fixed the HTML tags.

And sure, we're willing to discuss the departed members of our system. Were there any questions you had specifically?

--Miranda and Rogan
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ErinPtah Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
Awesome.

Hard to ask specific questions when you don't know anything to start with ^_^; A general timeline of who's been around, and for how long, and how they left, would be cool.
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2010
Sure, that's totally fair. Hrrrrrm. Lemme see...

This is everyone who had fronting powers with us. If we included all the imaginary friends and passerby, the list would be REALLY long, though we can put that up too, if you're interested.

Birth-2000: we are completely singlet, far as we know.

2/16/2000-3/8/2004: M.D. pops up, as a result of middle school bullying, gender issues, and other stuff going on in our head. She's an androgyne who swings between frothy rage and manic joy, and generally encapsulates all the socially unacceptable urges. She finally splits into Rogan and Sneak in 2004, due to being stretched too far.

2002ish-present: Gigi comes to deal with stress by being silent and unnoticeable. She does this very well until she suffers a couple medical accidents that give her a nightmarish recovery and a medication-induced psychotic episode. That combined with her inability to save us from the abusive period turns her batshit. She goes from quiet, timid little girl to creepy juggernaut, and though more stable now, she remains that way today.

2002-2004, 2007-present: Falcon started visiting periodically. He did little at front except occasionally deal with fear, and mostly lurked as a vaguely protective presence. He left around 2004 because he thought we were too old to need him anymore, only to return in 2007 because all hell was breaking loose. He was horrified to find out what had happened in the interim and has been visiting periodically ever since, mostly just as an avuncular friend.

3/8/2004-present: Rogan pops up to hold all of M.D.'s rage, cynicism, gender issues, and workaholism. He spends a few months as our workhorse, then becomes our system whipping boy, taking on the lion's share of the sexual abuse from a year-long relationship that followed. In 2007, due to everyone else being incapable, he took on main fronting duty and has been running things since.

3/8/2004-present: Sneak arrives at the same time as Rogan as the other half of the M.D. split, though it takes zer about a year to form zer identity entirely. Zie gets all the joy, happiness, and childlike wonder, and serves as the most protected member of the system, keeping the good stuff safe. Eventually, zie broke the filter forbidding zer to experience bad things, and has since aged and dealt with negative stuff.

5/2005-3/2007: Lollyanna takes on her name. We don't know whether she was our "original girl" taking a new name and developing a different self-image, or a new system member entirely. Around this time, we get steadily more and more multi as we deal with the abusive period. Lolly mostly holds everything together with a unified form of expression, but spends a lot of time confused about her gender, her personality, and everything else. Once we came out to ourself about our multiplicity, she lost cohesion and integrated with Miranda.

Spring 2005-present: Miranda arrives explicitly in response to sexual abuse, to be the perfect girlfriend (and tacit supporter) to our abuser. She was also the most sexual and feminine of the system. Her and Rogan are really brutal to each other for a year or two, but are now on good terms. Once Lollyanna integrated with her in '07, she also becomes our spiritual center and starts giving out wisdom and assistance. She's run support ever since, and has since developed a spine and sass.

3/2007-present: Mac charms, persuades, and outright shoves his way into our system, due to a long story involving him dying and not being too happy about it. Due to coming out to ourself, everything was crashing--Lolly was integrating, Miranda had just gotten dumped by a boyfriend and was grieving, Gigi was AWOL and batshit, and Sneak was too young to understand. Rogan had been shoved into main fronter duty without warning, but handling his own issues, school, coming out, and a physical illness was spreading him far too thin. Mac quickly took up running emotional support for all of us, moved in, and then ended up together with Rogan. He still mostly does emotional support, but also handles customer service job stuff.
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ErinPtah Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the explanation, and all the detail!

If you ever have time to type up that list of imaginary friends and passersby, I'll certainly read it ^_^
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BaaingTree Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2011
Thanks, maybe I will. It'd be a helluva list, but if you're interested, I can work one up for sure.

--Rogan
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